At the age of 24, I got engaged, and a year later I was married. I thought that I had everything, a beautiful man by my side, a life in another country and the prospect of a long and happy life.

But as much as these things should have given me joy and happiness… there was something within me that was calling and wanting me to speak up.

I could hear her call, and I didn’t know if it was a voice that I should listen to. I wasn’t sure if it was something that I should ignore, perhaps it was some kind of trick or test? Or if it was something that I should take on board.

I had everything, so why was I feeling like I was missing something? Why was this voice telling me to go another way?

It was like I was being told to reach for something, but I didn’t know what it was.

On one cold night, I sat in a meditation where I envisioned my soul. As I connected with her, I remembered who I truly am. That my authentic self is not the person that I set my self out to be. It is not the person that I have bottled up to be this perfect thing. It is not the person that says yes to everything, and that on the outside everything looks brilliant. But that my authentic self, is my wild, messy and free soul self. That my authentic self, is my soul.

She doesn’t listen to societal conventions, she listens to her self. And to the call of her soul.

Bravery and courage swept through me, and a knowing feeling began to set in. A few days later, I left my marriage.